Excruciating Pain: My Struggle With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome
It was a gloomy weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp pain sprang behind my one eye. This was followed by quick stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the pain subsided and then returned with greater intensity. Four times that day I left a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unbearable.
The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and again in spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-blown agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP finally referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.
Cluster headaches typically begin with intense pain around one eye that persists for several hours.
About one in 1,000 people are affected by the condition, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks typically start with sudden, excruciating agony focused on one eye that peaks within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal cycles; others have chronic attacks, defined by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.
What connects patients is the severity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.
One patient, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her teens, like many triggers, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.
Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Support finally came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.
Still, the failure to organize life around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.
Headaches have been described across the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They attributed the ailment to an evil spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.
Historical medical texts propose bizarre remedies for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a separate disorder, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.
It was a European doctor who provided the first detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.
The disorder were only officially recognised by global medical societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel that delivers blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the disorder note this.
In the late 1990s, scientists released the results of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.
Despite such advances, identification remains slow. One man's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor researched his complaints.
Neurologists say delays in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary headache conditions, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.
Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack eased.
Official guidance on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the bouts of some people.
But leading neurologists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined treatment pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Brief bouts with occasional attacks are managed with abortive treatment only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.
The national guidance need updating to reflect a